I thought today I could live without any big issues with my mental health, but no. My anxiety is once again high because of my OCD. Something on my dinner plate looked dirty and gross before I even started eating. Because it was disgusting to me, I had to get a new plate and another set of utensils. I had to transfer everything to a new plate because whatever it was had touched one area of said plate and made that whole portion of the plate contaminated. Fortunately, there was no food in that area. But still, I had already put food on my plate, and I had limited foodstuff. I felt sick the whole time I was eating. Now, my body wants to rid itself of its contents again. My insides feel dirty and disgusting.
