Was taken off duloxetine on May 8th. Updated my psychiatrist and therapist this morning about how I’ve been since. Took advantage of iMessage’s formatting to explain and emphasize how I’ve been, and also to be more careful about how I expressed myself because it was nearing lunchtime when I updated the group chat.
Suddenly realized that my OCD flare-up might be how my duloxetine withdrawal is manifesting this time. You don’t know how grateful I am to people who are so understanding of my being so easily disgusted about simple things in my daily life. You make my life that much bearable, and I appreciate it so much. Thank you for not shrugging it off as me just being so sensitive or “so maarte and so OC~” about things that people without OCD might find trivial and inconsequential.
I thought today I could live without any big issues with my mental health, but no. My anxiety is once again high because of my OCD. Something on my dinner plate looked dirty and gross before I even started eating. Because it was disgusting to me, I had to get a new plate and another set of utensils. I had to transfer everything to a new plate because whatever it was had touched one area of said plate and made that whole portion of the plate contaminated. Fortunately, there was no food in that area. But still, I had already put food on my plate, and I had limited foodstuff. I felt sick the whole time I was eating. Now, my body wants to rid itself of its contents again. My insides feel dirty and disgusting.
I’m back here once again after suddenly disappearing three years ago. So many things happened with my mental health and life in general. Now, I want to revive this blog. Not sure how to go about it as I want to post backdated entries. Is that possible here at the time of publishing? Or do I have to edit after the fact? I just checked the official Help Documents and found I can’t use the web version to do what I want. It doesn’t mention anything about the iOS app. I’ll use the macOS app in the morning to do what I am trying to do. For now, my evening quetiapine dose is finally making me sleepy.
Today is World Mental Health Day. Battling mental illnesses can be difficult and tiring, but you are never truly alone.
For my friends in need, I’m here for you.
Today is World Mental Health Day. Battling mental illnesses can be difficult and tiring, but you are never truly alone.
For my friends in need, I’m here for you.
Had therapy today. My therapist said I only have to see her once a month now because I’ve “improved leaps and bounds.” Happy with my progress. Grateful, too. Been a tough journey. But I’m alive and getting better.
Had therapy today. My therapist said I only have to see her once a month now because I’ve “improved leaps and bounds.” Happy with my progress. Grateful, too. Been a tough journey. But I’m alive and getting better.
Cheers to my first World Teachers’ Day!
Cheers to my first World Teachers’ Day!
I’ve got a black dog and it won’t stop barking.
I’ve got a black dog and it won’t stop barking.
After three attempts, I finally got Baekhyun’s Bambi!
After three attempts, I finally got Baekhyun’s Bambi!
Missing my dad on his 9th death anniversary.
Sunday’s clouds
It’s G day!
After 12 years, Kings of Convenience released a new album today. 🎵
Blackpink in my area!
It’s Chu’s Day!
The Build-A-Bear K.K. Slider with Welcome Horizons is so cute. I think I want one.
Couldn’t sleep last night. Staying up late is bad for my mental health.
Hello, rain.
These handmade ceramic palettes arrived today.
Missing Papa a little more than usual on his birthday.
I have been feeling under the weather since the vaccine. So my aunt sent a box of cookies to help make me feel better. Lucky me!
